But today I was just balls to everything. I missed, well okay, skipped all my classes because i didn't see the point. I took what some may call a 'ersonal day'. For one thing, I'm still sick, not helped by waking up in the middle of the night with a coughing fit that woke up my roomates, my head hurts like a bitch, and my throat is still sore like I smoked 10 cigars in a row on top of bronchitis. It is so fucking rainy out, which usually is my favorite weather, but it was all chilly and I wasn't wearing the proper shoes because I dont have any socks. Thats right. I don't own any socks. I used to, but then they got so many holes in then that i decided to use them as wrist cuffs.
I was walking thru the rain in my my open-toed 4.5 black platforms.
Then I find out:
I can't get my damn $300 deposit back for the apartment. WTF. Its my 300 dollars. I want it back. I'm not going to be living there, so why the f-ck should the landlord get to keep it? And they told me I need to find someone else to take my place. That won't work, everyone else has housing for next year set up. I can't believe I ever came back to this place. I should have spent last summer recovering, not making myself worse.
But whatever. I've got two weeks left, during which i AM going to get my money back somehow, and hopefully my 2.67 gpa doesn't drop lower. And i took medical leave from another class at the suggestion of my therapist. I don't know why i do this to myself.I'm such a masochist.
Ironically, there was a wellness fair going on today, but i didn't have the energy to drag myself to it. And they were going to have pet therapy. You know, petting puppies and such.
what the f. I now need to fall on one of my back-up plans because everything is going down the crapper and I can't breathe without gagging.